My Personal Assessment
My life experiences have taught me a lot in my twenty years. At age 14, I sunk into a deep depression. It all started when I quit playing basketball after my injury, it hurt me the most. I was able to play, I quit going to physical therapy. My knee never healed the way it should’ve, it took a big affect on me. It wasn’t bad at first and then things just kept happening to me. By 16, I thoughts of suicide and had actually attempting a couple times. The only thing holding me back was remembering my family. I have 2 nieces Taylor and Elizabeth, 2 nephews Vincent and Michael, 4 god-daughters Heather, Hailey, Angelina and Evalina, 2 god-sons, C.J and Noah and 9 baby cousins (second cousins). And my mother, she had already lost a child. I would never want my mother to go through the pain and agony that she did all over again. I would sit there with the knife in my hand and imagine my babies asking where I was and if I was coming home to see them. And it tore my guts up inside, I threw the knife away and sat in the corner of my room and cried for 2 days. When I had met my fiancé Eddie in May of 2005, I told him about my depression and he said he didn’t care and he would help me get through it all. And to this day he is still there for me 110%, has never left my side. He has helped me realize that depression cannot control me, I must control it! And I have been much better since.
I was raised very country, well redneck. I listened to country music; I used to walk around with spoons singing Reba McEntire songs. She has been an influence on me also. So I told my parents that I wanted to be a famous singer like Reba. I went to talent agencies and they wanted me but my parents couldn’t afford the portion that we had to pay. My dreams crushed before my 15th birthday. We tried again when I as 16 and it just got more expensive. I got over it, but I still sing my little heart out. As a redneck raised child, I watched NASCAR...