15 June 2015
She Changed Me
For some people, giving life to another human being gives them a sense of empowerment. I consider children to be a blessing from God; a gift that no man should ever take for granted. To me, giving birth to my oldest daughter was life changing. Giving her life opened my eyes to the woman that I had always wanted to be.
It was still sort of hot for October, the year was 2005, one day before Halloween. I didn’t know a thing about giving birth to a child, let alone loving one. I was young, immature, and still living with my parents. My daughter’s father was nowhere in sight; he was just a guy that I had sex with. He didn’t want a child no more than I did, but I do not believe in abortions. So I had to lay in the bed that I had made and make the best of my mistake.
The first time that I thought that was going into labor, my mom rushed be to the hospital; the pain was unbearable. It turns out, it was nothing more than Braxton Hicks contractions. A few days after that night, I was back at the hospital for the real thing. I never understood when a woman said that labor pains are the worst pains in the world until that night. I was hurting so bad; all I could do is cry like a baby for my mom. She was my rock that night; I don’t know how I made through that night without her. As the night turned into the morning hours, the epidural that the nurse gave me to help ease my labor pains made me sick as a dog. As a result, my daughter’s heart rate dropped dramatically. I was so terrified! I didn’t want my baby to die! Once the doctor was informed of what was going on, I was put to sleep and prepped for emergency surgery. On October 30 at 11:38 a.m.; I delivered Nyla Senae Talley by Cesarean Section. She was 5 pounds 9 ½ ounces, and 20 inches. All I know is that when I woke up, I was in a room with both of my parents and my sister. When the nurse brought my baby girl to me, I thought she was the most beautiful baby in the...