A Lesson Finally Learned
(Essay #1 Final Draft)
In life you are constantly faced with choices and decisions some not as life impacting as others. Sometimes we’re not sure which one to choose and we might make a bad choice which as a result teaches us a valuable lesson. We are expected to learn from these lessons in order not make the same mistake. It is only then that we grow and become wiser and happier individuals. For years I constantly choose to make the wrong choice when it came to drinking and using drugs. I thought I was normal and would convince myself by saying, “this time it will be different”. I repeatedly did the same thing over and over expecting different results. In A.A. (alcoholics anonymous) they call this insane thinking. It was not until that moment in January of last year when I totaled my car that I finally became willing to ask for help.
It was 3a.m. as the desolated highway awaited the morning traffic. I found myself driving down highway 101 heading north. I’ve been partying pretty hard for who knows how many days or weeks. Swerving all over the road I couldn’t seem to keep my eyes open. I rolled down the windows and let the chill of the early morning air blow against my face in hopes this would wake me up. My eye lids felt like a ton of bricks, I was so tired. I remember thinking “ok Heidi just pull over and park”, the next thing I knew I was upside down still buckled into my seat as my 81 Jeep Cherokee is began flipping over and over and over. I could see and feel debris flying from every direction, the load noise of the metal frame bending, the windows and windshield glass breaking. It was at that moment that I saw my life flash before my eyes, and realized that was how my life was going to end. I immediately began to pray although I hate to admit it I know God has never left my side. My Jeep was screeching against the road as it slid down the dark cold pavement. I don’t know how much time went by before I awoke. Disoriented I...