Maybe 10 years from now well have invented a cure for pain… but I doubt without pain I’d be happy. If you wanted to take away the main source of my stress and pain you’d have to take away all the females in the world. Not to say I don’t like women but in the same thought I can’t help but notice the things we let get closest to who we really are, are the things that can tear us down the fastest. Last night this week’s girl didn’t respond to my last text, but that’s whatever because two other girls did. Staying up till 3 in the morning makes you think you understand the universe. I’ll get over this one the same way I always do, and that’s moving on to the next one. And I just got out of something serious that ended in explosion, so if my mom asks who’s blowing up my phone ill say its phillis, because I don’t want her to know I'm about to get myself hurt again. She doesn’t have to worry because when this next one doesn’t work out, because the next next one might.
10 years from now I hope the term player never comes up. It insinuates disrespect for women and several women at the same time. Have being labeled as a player before these are two things I have issues with. Just because I don’t have time to wait around after some girl breaks it off with me doesn’t mean I don’t respect her. It just means that I respect myself enough to keep looking for what I deserve. and I don’t think I can tell a girl I love her, because I'm not sure if love even exists. I had it once, and that ended in me being who I am now. And the Holmes that is now isn’t any worse, maybe a little stupider, but back then I just cared more. I guess I’ve gone through some evolutionary changes; I’ve adapted to better protect myself from pain. In my first relationship I gave my heart away… so now the girls cant break what isn’t there anymore.