RIP Hayden Schaffer.
Hayden && me have had a lot of history, just in the 3 years I've known him. He taught me that lieing never helps, because it just hurts you on the inside. Hayden always knew me more then all my other friends. I always could talk to him about things, no matter what or who they were about. We have gotten into some fights but never for more then 12 hours, untill this year. He always told me I deserved better then what I really had. I used to talk to him 24/7 literally, even if we just sat on the phone and didn't say anything. Now things changed. Not only did things change between us after we broke up but now there is nothing between us because your dead, && I wish you weren't. You told me you would always care and you said you would always stand by my side, what happened to that. Why did you have to leave us? Everyone misses you and some more then others. I wish you would have realized that people have always cared about you, even when you thought that they didn't. As I sit in my classes I see everyone laughing and having a good time and all I can think about is you. It hurts so bad, because I know I'm never gonna see you again, but when I had that dream about you it ment everything, whether or not it was just a dream or if it was really you. I want you back in this world I would give anything to see you for one more day, I really would. Now that I gave you that ring back, I feel like the shittiest person in the world because the one thing that you gave me was mine and only mine and I gave it up just like that. I have nothing to remember you by except for memories and I wish I had more. I'm having such a hard time without you being in my life. School is empty without you there and going to your house and you not being there. I saw where you killed yourself today and you could still see the prints of where you were.