“W
hen we love, we are fools in love. Never knowing the consequences of what love may bring us, like fire, bound to unleash, destroy and cause havoc. We feel we are heroes, not withstanding pain but in the end, it is only when we love that we can really feel that there are some things worth living, worth losing, even though we shunned the thought of knowing the word tomorrow, still we love”. This is one thought I have realized after an unexplainable kind of experience about love.
From the very beginning, this girl I know is not always ready for a commitment or a relationship. She has been my first love since grade school (so CORNY ). We were also good friends yet I can’t tell her how I feel about her. We were seatmates since grade 1 up to grade 6 (but not anymore in high school). Even my good friends do not know who my crush was because I don’t want them to know. I am just enjoying the fact that we’re really good friends and I told myself that maybe it’s better this way. High school came and still she didn’t know. She has been asking me who I wanted to court and I’ll just say to her that I’m not for that kind of thing yet. What’s bad about it is that when she and her suitors would have a date and I can’t help but get jealous (chaka kau ). I know it was my fault why I felt that since she didn’t really know about the whole thing I have for her. Even though she had many suitors, she hadn’t said yes to anyone of them. I asked myself why not try. I was hesitant because I don’t want our close friendship to be at risk still I tried my luck.
We have this habit or let us say our weekly date at a pizza parlor in our place. I always treat her there because that’s our favorite pizza. One Saturday afternoon, we went there and ordered our favorite style of pizza. We always go for Hawaiian stuffed crust pizza. I asked her if she has plans of saying yes to any of her suitors. She said no. She told me she is not ready. Phew! Hehehe… I walked her home and still I was...