Stumbling through the many phases of life like pain, sadness, apathy, happiness, love, and loss you find a way to appreciate all the things that are good in your life.
You realize that just because you have people that leave your life that more will eventually follow. But they’ll most likely do the exact same thing. There are 6 billion people on this planet and you won’t ever meet every single one of them but the ones you meet cross your path for a short time.
I’ve lost most of my long-term friendships I had with friends I grew up with, the kids I went to school with and ones I’ve met. Now I appreciate the people that I’ve had friendships with for some time because they show me the great times of life.
I have a lot of negative thoughts on this world and how it operates, thoughts about suicide and just how much more peaceful it could be to just be in the in-between. But I’m also glad I didn’t and haven’t given up yet.
Growing up seems to be the hardest parts of your life, the stages after high school and college where you eventually have found out who real friends are or who hasn’t been a friend at all. You find something you are good at, that you will do for the rest of your life. You find things that make you happy and can stop all the hurting. You see all the good in life after growing up. I feel I’ve grown so much over the past few years but only because I was forced to.
Through all my struggles with relationships that went south or friendships of people leaving I’ve learned how to appreciate times of enjoyment more. The more simple things in life. I’m not saying I’ve had a hard life. I’ve been given a home, I have enough food compared to others, I have money to the point I’m not struggling living paycheck to paycheck, and I drive. I’ve got some good friends and a good family.
I’ve learned that I don’t need people in my life that don’t need me in theirs. Sometimes it’s just easier that way to be happy.
I don’t want to believe the world...