Life before My Son
Standing here today looking back at my life it seems like a blur. From where I was two years ago to where I am today, I must say, I am a completely different person for the better. Some things happen in life you don’t plan, expect, or even dream of happening. I used to be a stereotypical teenager. Now, I can be seen as a mature adult with a full-time job, full-time student and a great mother.
Looking back at where I was rather amazes me. While I was in school everything seemed a breeze. I didn’t have bills, no one to worry about and my whole life was pretty easy. All I had to worry about was going to school, my nails, hair and clothes. I went out every night with my friends not worrying about anything. I used to be able to go on two hours of sleep and be ready to do it all over again. Sometimes I stressed but over the smallest things. I made a lot of mistakes but it didn’t matter, I only had me to worry about.
I planned to join the Air Force because I wasn’t interested in going to college. College just wasn’t for me and I didn’t want to be in school anymore. I liked school but not enough. I wasn’t worried about leaving friends or family because I would see my family again and my friends were on their own path anyway. Even though I was supposed to swear in during August of 2008, I didn’t. The whole summer before that I partied, made mistakes and didn’t think about a few things. I was pretty careless. The day before I was supposed to swear in I found out I was pregnant. My whole care-free world came crashing down on me.
I never thought about the consequences from my actions and what could happen. My boyfriend and I were basically summer love, I hadn’t even thought about college, I lived in a party house with my roommates and worked 20 hours a week at a minimum wage job. I was thinking of the present, not about my future. The whole thing about only caring about myself changed. I had someone else to care for. I didn’t know what I was going...