Search for meaning in my life
Some people have asked me what makes my life meaningful. For a long time I didn’t know what to say or how to respond. So I did a search for my self and in the process found that you can’t have happiness without sadness, so if no sadness happiness has no value. So life, therefore, has no value if sadness isn’t in our lives. During this time I was asking this question a couple of years ago, I had never felt true sadness so the answer was heard to find. I was happy, yet not truly. I had always been the one to put everyone else before me so what made me happy wasn’t me at all, it was everyone else’s wish. I would do anything even it wasn’t me.
In February of 2007 my great grandmother had past away. She was always the one to cheer me up and was just like a mother if not more. I was filled with such an intense sadness I cried every night for a week and every Friday for a couple of months. (Fridays were the days I went over there.) After the sadness died down I could see things a little more clearly. I started thinking for myself, I learned life was cruel but in the end a happy time would come of it. I started playing tennis even though my dad wanted me to focus on water polo. I started living my life by hanging out with my friends more, and I was shown that there is more then just making others happy. I have more fun with my family and I go on more vacations. We got scuba certified as a family and we went a lot during the summer.
What gives my life meaning is the fact of being with family and friends and appreciating it, and seeing life in the way that I do which is in an artistic way. I love having the ability to do whatever I want to do, and explore what I want. To be able to read books, learn about new things, and apply them to everyday life, to go and see life all around us growing and changing. That is what gives my life meaning. I don’t like people much so I talk more to my computer and phone than real people, but...