Chapter 9: “Good Again”
You want on honest opinion on how I feel about all the guilt I have kept in for my entire life? My feelings of guilt spring from incidents of betrayal throughout only one sin and that one sin is theft. Every other sin is a variation of “theft", as my father illustrates his deduction to atone for his actions using the wealth he builds and an orphanage for illegitimate or orphaned children. Baba feeds the poor with his ceremonial lamb money. Baba also uses his courage and urge to fight for what is right. This is blatantly evident when he protects the Afghani women from the Russian soldier so many years ago and unforgettably states, "...I’ll take a thousand of his bullets before I let this indecency take place." If one were to ask me, I think my father’s decision to abandon our home and country is an evident sign of sacrifice to secure my long-term welfare and happiness, but maybe I hadn’t understood it as much at the time.
My past obviously showed a vast amount of love, trust, and betrayal towards two completely different people. Myself, the son of a wealthy and well-known man in the northern area of Kabul, develops a friendship with Hassan. As years progressed, I had a chance to save Hassan but the way I acted affected our lives that led us to follow two separate paths in life; one to fortune and opportunity, and one to ruin and solitude. You can easily guess from my past which path applies to me.
I was suffering and wanted to relieve myself of the guilt, though the only way to do this was to return to Pakistan and care for Hassan’s only child. After saving Sohrab, I no longer felt like a coward. I finally realized that the past could not be changed or altered to how I wanted my life to resolve; how I wanted Sohrab’s life to resolve.
At that moment, I then understood my goal in life and that was to take care of Sohrab. I needed to return good back to Hassan for all the good that he has...