October 8, 2013
The Value of Relationships and Forgiveness
There are a variety of different views that one can take on relationships and the value of forgiveness. I can say that as of recently my views on both have changed dramatically. I thought I knew what love was, that feeling that you feel when you see someone and the joy you feel when you’re together with them. But it`s so much more than that and I see it now. Love is measured by what you’re willing to sacrifice for that one person, throwing the fear of being hurt away and accepting the trust that they won`t break your heart. When your come across problems, It`s not about making excuses it`s about making solutions together. Love is about feeling whole, and not needing anything else but that one person to give your life meaning every day that you wake up. People ask me all the time why at certain times I look down, and it`s not that I’m necessarily down or depressed, I just miss her every moment that I’m not with her. Is that wrong?
Is it wrong that instead of fighting with her, I would rather be holding her?
Telling her every chance I get of how blessed I am to have someone like her in my life and what a privilege is to say that she`s mine and I’m hers. It’s something not everyone gets a chance to say, some of us take the people we love for granted not knowing that letting them go is going to be the biggest mistake that we will ever make in our young lives. I`ve done it many times without learning from my mistakes, I took the girl I loved for granted and lost her.
The pain that I felt was unbearable, I felt like I was starting to develop an anxiety disorder. I just wasn’t myself without her and I felt like I would have rather died than to go through the pain of being without her. I mean I wasn`t literally going to kill myself if I didn’t get her back, but at that moment I didn’t want to feel that pain it was the worst kind of pain that I`ve never known.