At 18, i ended my relationship with my routine life. i had a good college and felt blessed and yet, something was amiss. i was yearning to deconstruct my routine so that i could connect more intimately with my life. i wanted space and time to identify with myself. in april 2014, i had gone to my native village (sanchore, rajasthan) to attend a holy ceremony of diksha (renunciation of all the materialistic things to realise the virtues of one's inner soul) of my 23 year old cousin sister. After the ceremony was done i questioned myself that why such a young lady in her twenty's is renouncing all the money her father has earned for her, all the comforts her mother has always given her, and all the materialistic things (phones, computer, TV, internet) to which we are glued to 24*7 doesnt interest her , what is she really looking for? what does she really want to accomplish and is it the path really worth treading? I wanted the answers. I have witnessed the holy ceremony of diskha many times in my life, I have seen rich and wealthy businessman renouncing their wealthy empire, I have seen a 9 year old renouncing the world to become a monk, I have also seen a family 4 renouncing their life’s of comfort and power to love a life of a monk.

So, this time I made a decision to myself that I wont go home until I get my questions answered.

I went to the upashray (a place where jain monks stay) met the guru of all monks, let him know my desire to stay with them to explore the inner world of jain monks and know them better. He put forward his few conditions to which I must agree if I want to stay with them.


No cell phones during my stay, no footwear, no bed, no fan.

I have to wear traditional indian clothes – kurta payjama.

Initially I thought that’s too much to ask from an 18 year old but then everything has a price as it is said ‘nothing comes easy in life’, even santa comes with a clause. Eventually I accepted them all because my desire to get my...

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