I don’t know where to start.
How did we get here?
But I think saying sorry is probably the best place to start.
I am sorry.
For everything I’ve ever done to you, if I ever made you cry. I’m sorry for bringing you down. The last thing I want to do is bring people down with me. People say not to look at the glass as half empty but half full and I do, but it’s already too late and I understand that. This letter isn’t me grovelling and begging you to be friends with me again, I wouldn’t do that to you. I’m writing this letter to apologize, I don’t want to come to the end of the year and find that I never apologized for the way I behaved or I never tried to talked to you again.
I was being negative and I know that and I’m sorry if it affected you. :/
I’m not excusing myself for this but in the past I have had my best friend turned against me and I thought it was happening again. I was stupid and immature. If someone one did what I did I would have reacted the same way. I'm actually quite amazed that he did stick up for both his best friend and you. He is a good guy with true intentions for what he did.
I was just being selfish the whole time. I wanted things to be ok for my sake even though I knew that was a lot to ask out of everyone. I can say though that it was something I did and I recognize this but I also want to say I wasn't entirely in the wrong with what I did. Im still not forgiving myself for my actions. I just wanted to get that off my chest because not only am I apologizing, I am also trying to let you see my side of it. I made a fool of myself and I put our friendship at risk because of my poor actions, I’m sorry.
I screwed up, I know, I major screwed up, I have no excuses, I’m not going to lie to you. I know I shouldn’t say most, if not, all the things I said to you at the time. But I can’t take back what I’ve said and if I could I wouldn’t hesitate.
I hate fighting with you. Not being able to laugh with you and smile and...