Stressed Out

Stressed Out

IM HURTING IM HURTING REAL BAD AND I DON’T KNOW WAT TO DO TO MAKE THE PAIN STOP… SOME TIMES I WOUNDER IF IM GONNA MAKE FO THE NEXT DAY.. AND IM SCARED I TRY SO HARD NOT TO BREAK DOWN AND NOT TO GIVE UP.THE ONLY REASON I HAVE IT SOME WAT TOGETHER IS BECAUSE OF MY SON , CUZ I DON’T WANT MY SON TO SEE HIS MAMA FAILI THINK IM GOING CRAZY AND I NEED HELP.FOR SOME ONE TO HAVE FRIENDS AND A MAN I FEEL SO LONELY.. Y DO I FEEL LIKE THIS ? IM DEPRESSED AND HURT… AND TOO ASHAMED TO TELL ANYONE..I NEED TO SEE A SRINK.. I THINK THAT I HAVE KEEPED EVERYTHING TO MYSLEF AND LET MY FEELINGS BUILD UP AND NEVA TALKED TO ANYONE ABOUT IT IS THE REASON Y I FEEL DEPRESSED AND ALONE AND STRESSED…. IM SO STRESSED OUT THAT IM LOSSING MY HAIR… SOMETIMES I THINK THAT GOD DON’T WANT ME TO BE HAPPY.. HOW SILLY IS THAT?I GOT SO MANYTHINGS THAT ARE GOING ON IN MY HEAD I CANT EVEN WRITE THEM OUT…. I FEEL LIKE IM GOING TO HAVE A MENTAL BREAK DOWN OR IM GONNA SNAP….AND THE ONE PERSON THAT I REALLY WANT HERE ISN’T HERE AND THAT IS KILLING ME THE MOST … I FEEL LIKE GOLING FO A DRIVE AND TO NEVA COME BACK …BUT I CANT…..IM DEAD INSIDE IM EMPTY… GOT NUTHING LIVING INSIDE OF ME … IM SURPRISED THAT MY HEART IS STILL PUMPING..THIS IS THE SAME WAY I FELT LIKE WEN I WS IN HIGH SCHOOL MY JOUNIOR YEAR… I WAS SUIDICDLE… HAD TO GO SEE A SRINK EVERY WEEK AND ALL THAT GOOD STUFF..I DO WOUNDER SOMETIMES.. BUT THAT IS ONLY A THOUGHT … I CANT LEAVE MY SON IN THIS WORLD WITH OUT A MOTHER…..IF IT WASN’T FOR JAMAL I BELIVE I WOULDN’T BE HERE RIGHT NOW ON SOME REAL SHIT HE KEEPS ME TOGETHER HE HAS A REASON FO ME TO LIVE……I AM A VERY ANGRY BLACK WOMEN!

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