You Never Know How Much You Love Someone Until You Lose Them!
As a kid, I always felt like my mother favored my sister more than I. I’m the oldest of three while my sister “Felicia” also known as “Fee” is the middle child, who always seem to have things go her way. My sister and I are exactly one and a half years apart and hardly ever get along. I think she’s a spoiled brat who just has to have her way all the time. I guess because I am the oldest, my mom always seemed to take “Fee’s” side.
I remember many nights I would cry myself to sleep, telling myself that I hate my mom and my sister and I would wish that they would die. When I was eight years old I confided in my grandmother telling her that I thought my mother showed favoritism in her kids. My grandmother informed me that my mom may pay more attention to my sister because she’s younger, but she loves all her kids the same. I wasn’t trying to hear that at the moment and my grandmother could tell. My grandmother then said “Nesha,” I’m going to tell you something and I don’t want you to repeat it.
I replied, “yes ma’am.”
She said “before I go on, I want you to tell me who do you feel this way?”
I told my grandmother, “I feel this way because my mom always punishes me and fuss at me for every little thing. Like one time I went to school without a pencil so my teacher made me stay after school for detention and my mom had to wait for me. My mom wasn’t to happy about it and I ended up on punishment for a week.”
My grandmother said, “child, that’s no reason to think your mother loves your sister more than she does you.”
I replied by saying, “but grandma, that’s not all. One day I was outside playing and I lost my birthstone earring and my mom almost went crazy. She yelled at me so hard that I cried.” Then my mom said,
“You’re punish! And you better not ask me for anything. When fee gets money to go to the candy lady, you better not ask for any. All your candy lady money will go towards a...