I was born a girl and I’ve been breathing for quite a span..All of it started with this..me being a girl! Much before I could plant my feet firmly on the soil..you uprooted me. That wasn’t your ground..so I didn’t belong there…’’It always feels good to be in your own place!’’ you said..but you never cared about what I felt..did you?…It was rather.. how well I mingled with yours! It pricked me..but I gelled in!
You then saw your disgruntled self in me and tried raising me ‘perfectly’ to content yourself. You always wanted me t be ‘well-liked’ and to have a kind of personality that wins the day..bt then..there’s a massive gap between reality and illusion which you never understood! Someday.. I believe you’d wake up and stop selling me your dream! I was the strongest sperm that survived and I’d make it..all by myself!
You again, were the first person to call me beautiful baby.. I sure was a baby then..way too innocent to have understood your ulterior motives..everytime your hands unbuttoned and went all over me…I cudnt fix a feel..you said it was out of love..’’ I love you more then your father does’’..you said..’’if he learns about this ..he’d kill me..so let this be our secret!’’ And you went on ‘loving’ me..untill the day I felt a pain..and ran away from you..smthing in me started fearing you..all of you!
I’ve grown and you don’t know a crumb of what’s inside me! I’ve been a victim of your violence..you’ve had slaughtered thousands of me in the name of religion or community..raped me one after another till I was dead..and then laughed over my naked corpse! Yes..You’ve established your power! Men dat you are!
You’ve taken all of me..bt I still breathe..surrounded by you..taking care of you..feeding you..loving you…selflessly! I started wondering ‘Where on earth do I exist?’ until I realized that being invisible to you..has increased my visibility towards me all the more.. I am able to see myself inside out now! I hold the fire within me and scatter my...